[RANDOM] MY SONG FOR TODAY & ABOUT MY LIFE -_-

This post is just a random rant..
Please skip it if you don't wanna read it :p
Recently I have some problems, but I couldn't tell in words..
But I think this song could explain some of it..
I really wanna quit, if I could..



INSULT KISS ME BY DEATHGAZE

The lyrics describes my situations right now..
oh well, it just a lyrics but it has a deep meaning for me..


I posted only the English translation (because I had posted it once here..)

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INSULT KISS ME 
BY DEATHGAZE



With hands with nails torn off, search for salvation
I hate glowing outsider.
The feeling of crushed sand; things unknowingly begin to distort

The forgotten pain of a broken heart time has healed
I hate glowing outsider.
My body shivered uncontrollably as I continued to search the darkness

Beneath that unending sky that conceals the lies and the tears
That continued to be shed in that unknown world
Describe the hopes that have continued to pile up in that unseen field of vision
Until the day moist eyes dry

On a cold floor, with silence that seems to split things apart
I hate glowing outsider.
Struggling for that tedious dream means just feeling the pulse

The broken watch is unchanging, never moving again for eternity

Concealing the lies and the tears that continued to be shed in that unknown world
Beneath that unending sky
Describe the hopes that have continued to pile up in that unseen field of vision
Until the day moist eyes dry

Towards that unknown tomorrow
With a scream that can't be considered a voice I want you to forget even the mistakes
With those hands that know nothing
Tear off the chains that have bound you and just open your eyes


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did you get what I'm feeling right now?


I wanna go back to the "old me" ..
When I can work everything with my best efforts..
Ignoring the unpleasant feelings, regrets..
Carried out everything with enjoy and hard work..
Laugh and live to the fullest..
Not giving a fake smile..

All the shit that happened now..
I just couldn't describe it..
WTH am I doing?
Why did it happened??
I also couldn't understand...
and cries doesn't solve anything..



Towards that unknown tomorrow
With a scream that can't be considered a voice 
I want you to forget even the mistakes
With those hands that know nothing
Tear off the chains that have bound you and just open your eyes